End of Year Exams | 你为何不在场

Today is the start of my first semester final exams. I really want to scream now. I am kind of restraining myself as there are too many people in my house right now. Just had my 1101 exam and I was quite comfortable with this module during my study week as compared to 1131. It is a lot more comfortable in fact, as the questions in 1101 are more logical. I cant believe I just blew up my chances for that paper. One whole question 20 marks gone. Some people might comment that there will be marks for working, but how to the markers give when the first point is already wrong? The rest of the diagrams and whatnots are based on that one point. I really cannot believe that I made such a mistake, maybe because I had never been wrong about such stuff. I know I should be studying for my exams tomorrow but I kind of felt that I need an outlet to release all the pent up energy, otherwise I will start walking around my house. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

I always tell myself never to look back and think about what if I can go back in time. It is kind of having regrets in your life. This is like the first time this year I have felt so strongly thinking about what ifs. I have barely gotten over last year’s one.

阳光透过了纱窗　空气微尘飞扬
书架空了一半　散落照片几张
回忆被你占满　但你不在场

为何要到悲伤　才想你的肩膀　但你却不在场
为何我的坚强　会瞬间瘫痪　爱为何不在场

自尊是一个战场　让我们都受伤
明明才爱到一半　感觉已经变酸
寂寞大得空旷　因你不在场

为何要到悲伤　才想你的肩膀　但你不在场
为何我的坚强　会瞬间瘫痪　爱为何不在场

为何要到无望　才拒绝遗忘　但是你却不在场
为何我的遗憾　总是割不断　爱为何不在场

wo 为何话说那么满　让爱情百孔千疮　进退两难
wo 为何我会失去方向　莫非…　只因为你不在场

为何要到悲伤　才想你的肩膀　但你不在场
为何我的坚强　会瞬间瘫痪　爱为何不在场

为何要到无望　才拒绝遗忘　但是你却不在场
为何我的遗憾　总是割不断　爱为何不在场

那感觉今天又回来了。为何不在场。。。看到左右空间空空的我，总是觉得为何会聆听我诉苦的人那么遥远，而其他人对我来说很陌生，有点话不投机。前几天听到这首歌，觉得蛮不错，今天却觉得为何它在讲我。